Thursday, July 22, 2010

I'm Not Perfect

Yep, I make mistakes.

Usually I will admit them.

Sometimes.

Still I have to admit this one. As it was a total blunder on my part.

As you might be aware I came out to my parents recently. You should know as it was one of my most read posts on this blog.

Shortly after that happened my Mother asked if I could setup a separate email account for her to use to talk to me. As she was worried some of the things she would talk about might be hard topics to discuss and seeing how she was sharing an email address with my Dad, she didn't want to upset him too much should he read something he might not like. I told her it wasn't a problem.

I set her up with a gmail account, showed her how to use it and sent some test messages back and forth to my normal email account.

Then I left it at that figuring she would get a hold of me when she was ready.

So I waited.

And waited some more.

Still waited.

By now almost four weeks had passed and I was starting to get a little nervous and edgy. I simply had not hear from her.

Talk about nerve racking and I really didn't want to call and push the issue. I was really trying to let her come to me when she was ready for it.

Still I really didn't expect to wait this long.

My only thought was to just try and be patient.

It wasn't easy.

Then she called me earlier this week to ask me a few non related questions. Tell me some things that were happening with her and Dad. Then she asked me if I had gotten any of the emails she had sent.

"..."

OMG! So there I was sitting on pins and needles all this time and was totally starting to reach panic levels. Yet She had been sending them all along.

Last night when I got home and could access my full email client I found them in my junk folder. Even thought I had tested sending email to and from, my filter still had flagged her emails as junk and moved them.

Fortunately I don't clear my junk mail folder often. I do it about once a month just in case something like this happens.

I felt relief as I found them. Set her address as safe and I should be able to see her messages and respond in a much more timely fashion.

Wheew! It was a relief.

As for what was talked about, she just had a lot of question and comments which I answered. Though I glossed over a few of the more extreme things I am planning for now. Though they were mentioned. While I covered other things in greater detail. It was a long enough response to begin with so I wanted to explain things that were more immediately in need of additional time while others could wait.

The one scary question and it just startled me that she asked so soon. Was she wanted to know my name.

I hesitated on that for a while but in the end I gave her my new first name. Kelli isn't going anywhere and I simply have grown to like it and it fits me. As for the rest I don't know yet, but time will tell.

Though it was nice to know that she had been gathering information and getting up to speed.

And I have a feeling I will be posting bits and piece about what her and I discuss.

Should be interesting.

2 comments:

Jessica Lyn said...

Funny.. my mom never asked what my name is.. I even asked her and she just avoided the question. She knows now tho

I hope everything is okay between your mom and dad.. maybe your dad is taking he messed up or wasnt a good enough dad for you or something. I'm sure he probably doesnt really get it that you were born this way and theres nothing anyone can do to change that. I'm pretty sure thats where my mom stands too.

Jerica Truax said...

I'm glad there's this communication between you and your mom. That is something to treasure. *hugs*