Tuesday, June 8, 2010

Broken, Beaten and Scarred

The title says it all.

The last twenty-four hours have not been kind.

I feel hurt, trampled, and numb all at the same time.

Never had I ever felt so empty as I did last night.

Things have changed.

I have no idea the extent of their impact yet.

I have a hunch that it will be much greater then I can fathom.

It has sucked the life right out of me.

I will get through this, I have to, but this one is not going to be easy.

I do owe a huge thanks to someone who generously gave me some of her time last night with out prompting. Staying up I would assume well past bed time.

Not much was said but it definitely made me feel better.

Still I will find out how true the statement "What doesn't kill you only makes you stronger." really is.

Because I am going to need all the strength I can get.

4 comments:

Melissa said...

What on earth happened sweetie? If you need to unload, I'm always here, and my email is in my profile if you want privacy. :-)

Melissa XX

Anonymous said...

I know I haven't posted many comments to your blog, but I read every one. I, too, am concerned. I hope you're okay. You never have to feel like you're alone in all of this... we care about you. I hope you know that and realize that we are all here to help each other.

Love,
E.

Stace said...

Hope that you come out of the other side of whatever happened intact.

Not much that I can do from the other side of the Atlantic, but my thoughts are there anyway.

Stace

Kelli Bennett said...

Wow! Thank you everyone I am truly touched by the concern and out pouring of support. I am simply amazed by the fact that other people read this.

What happened cannot be discussed openly. I just had to make some really difficult and painful decisions.

The backlash from those have been awful and it will impact my ability to move forward.

How? I don't know yet.

I think that is what has me the most concerned and causing the most hurt.

Thank you again everyone. I do feel a bit better knowing you are listening.