Seems an apropos statement.
Things seem to now be in a complete state of flux.
Not that this would be a bad thing.
Just everything that was in my head about what to get done and when has been thrown up into the air.
And I am not sure which one will come down first.
Maybe I needed this. I have a lot of things that need to be taken care of.
Perhaps pushing transition back to next year might make more sense. I can take care of other big issues first and get myself to a point were it is simply dealing with work and transition.
Plus the extra time will allow me to further investigate things that I need to along with save more money to have them done.
It isn't ideal as I know it will be harder to hold myself together that long.
I'll have to find a place to live, sort out the mess at home, determine how that will impact me then figure out when I can go forward again.
With any luck that will be early next year. Hopefully in March, but I at least want to have the next big steps scheduled by years end so that I can start dealing with other things.
Like coming out at work.
So that I can take time off next year for the aforementioned events along with returning as me.
That...should be interesting.
And I can always book things now and just shuffle them later if I need to.
*sigh*
I just want to get through all this mess so that I can soar. :D
Things seem to now be in a complete state of flux.
Not that this would be a bad thing.
Just everything that was in my head about what to get done and when has been thrown up into the air.
And I am not sure which one will come down first.
Maybe I needed this. I have a lot of things that need to be taken care of.
Perhaps pushing transition back to next year might make more sense. I can take care of other big issues first and get myself to a point were it is simply dealing with work and transition.
Plus the extra time will allow me to further investigate things that I need to along with save more money to have them done.
It isn't ideal as I know it will be harder to hold myself together that long.
I'll have to find a place to live, sort out the mess at home, determine how that will impact me then figure out when I can go forward again.
With any luck that will be early next year. Hopefully in March, but I at least want to have the next big steps scheduled by years end so that I can start dealing with other things.
Like coming out at work.
So that I can take time off next year for the aforementioned events along with returning as me.
That...should be interesting.
And I can always book things now and just shuffle them later if I need to.
*sigh*
I just want to get through all this mess so that I can soar. :D
2 comments:
I understand girl. I took the fast track myself because I felt the same way. If you can get things in line first then the more power to you =)
Then soar! =)
This is way I haven't yet transitioned. When I moved in with my mom, my car got smashed and so I had to buy a new one. Had to mom out of my moms house and get an apt. Got rid of my apt and got a house. And the house has a things that it needs and things that I want for it.
All these things I've done but I haven't yet start HRT, and that's the one thing I wanted to do when I told my mom about me like 3 years ago.
At least I have these things now and I'm in a place where I feel safe and transitioning must come next.. maybe I wasn't exactly ready for it 3 years ago, but I am more than ready now.
I hope everything goes well for you. (Hugs)
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