There was one small incident during the holidays that I forgot to mention.
It was rather small but it has lingering in the back of my mind.
My Brother called me on Christmas Eve, he was feeling lonely and melancholy. It isn't my fault that he moved six hundred plus miles into the middle of nowhere after his divorce.
I still talk to him but he can be difficult. He is like Mom in that regard only worse.
Still we talk about things he is doing, which considering where exactly he lives is not a whole heck of a lot at this time of year. Other than working, eating and staying warm.
Though our one common bond is our fierce passion for the hometown hockey team. It is indeed the things we discuss the most.
The part that surprised me was the amount of emotions he displayed. Really I had not hear or seen that in him in twenty-six years.
He is feeling alone, missing his family and sons, and I am sure my issue, now that he knows, isn't helping matters. Also Christmas Eve has always been the bigger of the two days regarding the gathering of family. Which I am sure was adding to the mood.
The frustrating part was that through all that, the sympathy and kindness I showed him so he would feel better was lost when he made a comment to me about my issue, that though he might have thought he was being funny, was not. It clearly showed his male point of view along with that he is really not getting it at all.
It was vulgar, tasteless and crude.
I didn't get into it with him as I was having a hard time preparing myself to visit family for Christmas eve. These would be the same ones that dropped this fun one on me last year.
I did inform him that the comment was not appreciated and that he wasn't understanding that was not the reason I was doing this.
Sadly he stuck to his opinion.
Maybe with time he will understand, but the man has a bad habit of not seeing the issue(It is a big reason he is now divorced) or not wanting to until it is too late.
Death by avoidance if you will.
I will keep trying but I cannot hold his hand forever. He either he comes to terms with it eventually and accepts me for a human being, not necessarily his sister, or it will be another lost relationship for him. As I won't tolerate this attitude if he wants to continue with it long term.
Fear not I have not written him off, but I can tell this will be another difficult road.
It does make all this feel very much like you are trying to swim upstream with everything rushed back at you trying to slow you down.
3 comments:
As with Jessica, I'm not sure what I can say without knowning more (and that is not a fishing trip).
Just hoping the best for you.
Stace
LOL in a nutshell it was just a comment that left no doubt in my mind that he thinks I am doing this to satisfy a sexual or clothing fetish.
That is so not the case.
Like you said, he is divorced for a reason. And my guess is that he is not the one who asked for the divorce. Unfortunately, we don't have the ability to choose our family. Family members can certainly say the most hurtful things. Sigh..
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