Tuesday, December 18, 2012

One Year Later

It is really hard to believe that a year ago I was about to go full time.

At this point last year my company knew.

My department and co-workers knew.

Things were about to change rather radically.

There was to be no more switching back and forth. I would not have to pretend to be a boy anymore(not like I was succeeding very well trying).

Emotionally I was all over the place wondering if this really was going to go over well.

Or was I just going to fall flat on my face.

It is interesting to sit here one year later and think about all of it.

Reflecting on my nerves those first few weeks

Which were only about the office. Really, outside of work life had already shifted so much and since the general public didn't know any better, life was easy there.

I found it hard to even walk into the office back then. I just did not want to be that person anymore.

That doesn't mean I wasn't scared those first few days. Even with all the due diligence that I did. The soul searching. The personal exploration. I was still scared.

How could I not be?

Yet with all that here I am one year later and things have gone extremely well.

Who knew however that all of what was to come was going to happen. The Good, The Bad, and The Blonde.

I have had some amazing moments over the last year.

I have had some ugly and sad ones.

I have also had a lot of 'duh' moments.

With all of that though I am amazed that here I am one year later. Healthy, extremely happy, and simply truly enjoying being alive for the first time in my life.

I had so much fear and trepidation built up in my head and while some of it did happen. Most did not.

It is rather surreal to think about all of it.

Still here I am one year later.

The importance of that sentence cannot be stated enough.

Read it again if you don't see it the first time.

The thing that amazes me the most though?

Holy Calender Batman!!

It has been one year!!!!!!


Stace said...

Amazing isn't it? Just had my one year anniversary. It's the only one I plan on marking as living as me is enough!



Cassidy said...

Congratulations, sweetie! I am so proud of you! You have earned every bit of happiness you experienced this past year.

As far as next year, I think your tolerance for our bovine brethren and sisters could be improved upon. (And don't get me started on your inability to acknoweldge the inherent superiority of candlepin bowling over that travesty you midwesterners call a sport...) But hey, no one is perfect, though. Except Bobby Orr. On that we can all agree.

Congratulations again, hon! Year 2 is going to be even better; I have no doubt!

Hugs and lots of love,

Kelli Bennett said...

Um...Cass...I hate to disappoint you, since I am a huge hockey fan(DAMN YOU GARY BETTMAN!!! *SHAKES FIST*) but I just witness the end of the most amazing and virtual perfect hockey player ever to play the game. I was fortunate enough to see him play 20 years. Never once missing the playoffs in all those years. I have major respect for Mr. Orr, but Nicklas Lidstrom quite simply was the perfect human and player. Also as far as I am concerned the best defenseman ever to play the game.

And I like cows, but you know I am a moose girl. Sheesh! Anyone can like cows, try to be orginal! ;D

Cassidy said...

BITE YOUR TONGUE! SACRILEGE! Bobby Orr is perfection in human form! And he had the good sense to play in Boston, not some Midwest wannabe! (OK, we got Iggy Pop and Bob Seger, so Detroit *does* have its good points. Lindstrom as Messiah, though? Uh-uh. Only a moose-lover would think - oh, wait, now it all makes sense! You poor, poor girl, you just can't help yourself! ;c)

== Cass

P.S. For what it's worth, I curse Gary Bettman too. What am I supposed to while I wait for spring training to start: watch football, for God's sake?!? Baseball and hockey; all a gal needs for a full year...